Junkyard Heart

I'm Kate. I click my fingers with the wrong fingers. That's about as interesting as I get.

"

My brother killed himself
on the twenty-eighth Thursday of last year
and I missed four days of work
and my mom wanted to know ‘Why’.
My brother
he was always a fan of beauty
but what he did
was not beautiful at all.

And last week I got the news
that one of my good friends from high school
had overdosed
(again)
except this time
she’d gone too far
and now she was gone.
And I had a hard time falling asleep at night
and her mother
hugged me tight
and thanked me for coming to the service
but I did not
want to be there at all.
This is not
beautiful.

The girl down the street
would’ve turned 21 last year
and I can scarcely imagine
the wild times she would’ve
(should’ve)
had.
But she is buried six feet deep
after falling nearly 300
and she did not leave a note.
This is not
beautiful.

My freshman year of college
and my roommate was beautiful
and how I wanted to be just like her.
But she wore herself down
till she was
almost invisible
and if you blinked
you had to go and find her all over again.
So now her parents are no longer supporting her college tuition
but are paying her hospital bills
watching their daughter crumble.
This is not
beautiful.

So y’all can take your narcissistic
romanticizing
and glamorizing
of self harm and eating disorders and committing suicide
and shove them as far up your ass
as you possibly can.
Starvation is not beautiful.
Killing yourself is not beautiful.
Sadness
is not beautiful.
This note I am writing
is not beautiful.

But you
you are beautiful
and it’s about damn time you start believing it.

"

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"When someone makes you the happiest person and the saddest person at the same time, that’s when it’s real. That’s when it’s worth something."

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"Life would be so much easier if we just told people how we felt. There’s noting wrong with telling someone that you love them, or that it hurts your feelings when they do something, or that you miss them. But we’re all just too scared to let people know how we actually feel."

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"If you’re ever lucky enough to find a girl who is a hopeless romantic with a dirty mind, you should hold onto that. Because she’ll be yours at two in the morning and at two in the afternoon the following day. She’ll kiss you where it hurts and until it hurts. And that’s important. Someone who not only knows how to turn you on but also knows how to treat you right is someone worth a little something… and a little more than usual."

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euphoricspirit:

Words barely hold the ability to describe how completely perfect this would be, if it were you and I sometime.

euphoricspirit:

Words barely hold the ability to describe how completely perfect this would be, if it were you and I sometime.

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1hey:

I was gonna write about you again. but then I remembered you don’t care. and I should be over this.  truthfully, I didn’t deal with it in the first place.  maybe that’s why it’s been pouring out of me lately. the emotions and hurt, I mean. they’re kind of drowning my fucking guts. I want you to know I still think you’re as lovely as the sunsets I wanted to show you.  and the moon that I did.  I don’t know if you remember that but you said it was beautiful.  I remember thinking, I wish I could give it to you somehow.  because your eyes were so sad.  it would’ve been nice to see them in awe.  I looked at you in awe.  anyways, I want you to know I’m happy for you.  I’m pissed you’re not happy with me. but that’s not really what people are supposed to say.  so I’ll just say I’m happy for you and leave it there. I’d still give you the moon if I could.  I’d give you the whole fucking sky.  even if you wanted to share it with her instead.

1hey:

I was gonna write about you again.
but then I remembered you don’t care.
and I should be over this.
truthfully, I didn’t deal with it in the first place.
maybe that’s why it’s been pouring out of me lately.
the emotions and hurt, I mean.
they’re kind of drowning my fucking guts.
I want you to know I still think you’re as lovely as the sunsets I wanted to show you.
and the moon that I did.
I don’t know if you remember that but you said it was beautiful.
I remember thinking, I wish I could give it to you somehow.
because your eyes were so sad.
it would’ve been nice to see them in awe.
I looked at you in awe.
anyways, I want you to know I’m happy for you.
I’m pissed you’re not happy with me.
but that’s not really what people are supposed to say.
so I’ll just say I’m happy for you and leave it there.
I’d still give you the moon if I could.
I’d give you the whole fucking sky.
even if you wanted to share it with her instead.

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"You are the best parts of all the songs I love."

— Iain S. Thomas, I Wrote This For You (via perfect)

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